I should, at this moment be freaking out. I mean really, really freaking out. When I got home today I noticed that my mom looked sad, maybe not sad more like worried. I asked what was wrong, but she was at the phone at the time and asked me to give her a moment. I went about putting away my work stuff and settling into comfy clothes. A little while later, she said she needed to talk to me, so I sat down. Here’s what she said, “I have been let go from my job. Today was my last day.” Turns out the person who is over her is hiring someone new, but the new person can only work the days and hours that my mom works. Knowing that my mom would more than likely be eventually leaving she decided to let her go. For most right about now the preferred action would be anger or throwing a fit, maybe even ranting about the unfairness of it all. Surprisingly though, I am not upset, nor am I anger, I am not even scared. I am however tired. I feel like for the past few months I have been pushing a boulder uphill, with no reprieve and no downhill insight. Yesterday after my encounter with Ms. S (read DAY 113), God said it was time to let the boulder go. So I woke up today ready for whatever God had in store (I did not see this coming though). What’s odd is that instead of fear, or frustration I felt a sense of relief. I really didn’t want my mom doing that job, I didn’t trust the person managing her, and everything about the job to me felt wrong, but we needed the money…  I choose to view the events of the day as  God closing a door, because He has a better one He’s about to open. When I started this new journey in January (walking God’s path), I said I would follow His direction no matter what. Today all I could think after my mom told me the events of her day was, God doesn’t do anything without a reason. He has a plan and I need to follow. Then He reminded me 하나의 작은 움직임이 큰 기적을, translation: One small movement, BIG miracles.

“For you shall not go out in haste, and you shall not go in flight, for the LORD will go before you, and the God of Israel will be your rear guard” (Isaiah 52:12).

What’s my plan? One small movement.