A change in perspective, a change of view.
(Picture by Lisa R.)

I am just realized something. I am scared! I am petrified about the move I am making. I am worried that I may fail, may not accomplish my goal and that my life will end up as nothing. This has always been my biggest fair. Not failure, but becoming inconsequent, irrelevant. Why? Every person with a pulse wants their life to have meaning, have purpose. We all want to be remembered for something. How did I come to my fear discovery? Today, I went to a doctor’s appointment, stood on the scale and almost had a heart attack!!! When I saw my weigh I quickly went through my recent eating pattern and realized that I had been handling my fear with food, which wouldn’t be so bad if I had chosen healthy foods, but… NOPE (while comfort food is comforting, it is not healthy). Today as I sat bemoaning my current state, I tried to find logic to my fears. I don’t understand why, I am fearful. I know the decision is right. Even now God is meeting and supplying every single need (as recent as yesterday). So why am I so fearful? Then it hit me that I am looking at me. I am not looking at God. I know in my heart and in my head that God will take care of me, of my family. The problem is that while my head may know it my eyes are NOT focused on His strength , but mine. Guess what? My strength is inadequate. So at this juncture in my journey I think it is time for a perspective change. It is time for me to focus on WHO needs to be focused on and take my eyes off I who I SHOULDN’T be focusing on, myself.  I am reminded of something I often say to others, but need to hear myself: Our perspective determines our actions. Meaning how we see a situation, determines how we will handle it. If we see it as scary we’ll react in fear. If we see it as chance for growth, then we will grow. So today I am choosing to see this as God’s leading. Therefore my reaction is to follow, WITHOUT fear. We all face moments of fear it part of our human journey, but our perspective will determine how we handle it. Change our perspective, change our view.

“What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?” (Romans 8:31).

So what’s the plan? Fix my eyes on God.