The journey is never easy. We make wrong turns, and bad choices. But everyday we get another chance.

Today I realized something profound and sad. I have lost my focus. It has been a subtle, slow decent. Little by little without seeing what was going on, I have been putting my focus and my energy into something other than what God has for me. Don’t get the wrong idea I am not a derelict fighting to negate God’s power in my life. Nor am I living in blatant sin, doing whatever is against God’s word. No, it’s worse than that. I am letting little (unnoticeable) things seep in and distract me. I am allowing my mind to wonder, allowing my thoughts, and my focus to wonder. I wouldn’t have noticed if it wasn’t for this nagging discontent that I have been feeling lately; which I have been doing my best to try and ignore it, but it just won’t go away. Then it hit me. I feel this way, because I have become distracted. It’s an odd thing to be in the wrong, while not doing anything really wrong. It is amazing to me how easily we can let go of God’s hand, even when we know Him holding us is the best thing in life. I feel so disappointed in myself. However, right now (as I type this post) I am also happy that I am disappointed. Why? Because it means that I desire to serve God, desire to do what He wants me to do. So much so, that when I am not where I am suppose to be it hurts me. So,  today I am thankful for my disappointment, thankful that I feel ashamed that I let my light slip. Thankful that I see what I am missing. So many people don’t. So many feel this same emptiness and fill it with things that leave them even more empty. I haven’t said this in a while, but today it’s making a come back. If you’re empty God can fill it in a way that doesn’t leave you empty again. I am not asking you to believe because I do. I a simply asking that you seek truth, the REAL kind. It’s not hiding.

 “Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth” (Colossians 3:2).

So what’s my plan of attack? Putting my focus back on God.