Life is like a tree it blooms or dies depending on how you feed it…
(벚꽃 -sounds like pop-corn- Chenon S. Korea Picture by Joy Seo.)

So I am home from the hospital, I am better but still a little under the weather. As always being sick makes me contemplative. Sometimes I think God allows me to be sick so that I can be more thoughtful about my life. Usually I am rushing through life like a steam engine. going full throttle and not stopping to check if I am still going in the right direction. Today in my down time, I had a chance to reflect on somethings that have been on my mind. I have realized that I spend a lot of time letting things go. When a situation that I don’t like arises, instead of saying something I normally let it slide. But what  I have come to realize is that I don’t really let it go, I push it down in my subconsciousness, in my heart and let it sit there and fester.  Today I realized how much this bad behavior really hurts me (and those around me). As I sat reflecting God tapped on my heart and told me it was okay to speak when I needed to, but to do so with respect understanding that the other person’s feeling was just as important as mine. I had a tendency in the past of speaking only when I was angry and as such I ended up saying things I didn’t mean to say. In an effort to correct my behavior it seems I swung the pendulum in the completely opposite direction. It’s normal to be upset, and it’s not a sin to speak up when something is wrong. However, we must always be mindful that our words can be lethal. Here’s what I learned: Knowing when to speak and when to be quite is important. and not speaking is just as wrong as saying whatever we want. In all things BALANCE.

“Let your conversation be gracious and attractive so that you will have the right response for everyone” (Colossians 4:6).

So what am I thankful for today? Balance and freedom.