Light shines brightest in the dark. Pray for light.
(Picture by Lisa R.)

I am having a hard time today. I am feeling jittery because I have spent the whole weekend thinking about someone that I am worried about. I have spent the majority of my time praying out loud, in my heart, and with others for the well-being of a person, who even at this moment I am not sure is alive or dead. This is one of the draw backs of the medical field. This is the biggest downside of working with people that have a terminal illness. Friday is the best day in the world when you leave work and there is no bad news. It is the worst day when you get news you knew would eventual come, but it still shocks you and makes you feel human and helpless. I feel the limitations of my humanity in times like this, times when I have no power to do anything in my own strength. It is in these times I am grateful and thankful that I believe and trust in an ALL powerful God. I can wish a person well from now till the cows come home, but unless I develop some sort of super power, my well wishes are just empty words (with good intentions). BUT God (see why these are my two favorite words)…but not so with God. I know that whether this person lives or dies God has a plan that is beyond what I can see. My desire is that she is healed 100%. My desire is that she sees her daughter graduate from college, get married, and give her grandchildren, but even if she was granted this, the reality is that someday (even if it is not by illness), she will die. So my prayer for her would be that God becomes her best friend, the captain of her ship. I pray for healing spiritually, physically, and emotionally. I pray for a COMPLETE healing. I pray God’s will be done.

“Pray without ceasing” (1 Thessalonians 5:17, NLT).

So what am I thankful for today? That God is bigger than me.