If you’re in the dark and waiting. It’s not the dark that scares you, but the waiting.
(Picture by Lisa R.)

We are having a stress moment here. We can’t get in touch with my brother, which wouldn’t normally bother me. However, recent events have me a little nervous, coupled with the fact that not one, but both of my parents are worried. I am learning (right now) that the most horrible thing in the world is waiting. It’s one thing to wait, when you know what to expect. It’s a whole other ball game when you have no idea if anything bad has happened. Every scenario runs through your head and most of the time what comes to mind is the worse situation possible. I am watching my mom worry because she doesn’t know if her child is okay. My father (who we normally don’t talk to) has called several times. I am not a panic-er by nature, but hearing the concern in your parents voice has an effect on you. When I lived away from my family I use to be irritated when my parents worried about me. However, today I realized it is love, it’s sacrifice. Today while my brother may be upset. I pray he knows that all of it is because he is loved. Many people in the world don’t have that. Tonight I realized how blessed I am to know that God has put people in my world who are more concerned with my well being, than my anger at them. Oddly, for that I am extremely grateful.

“Be angry, and yet do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger…” (Ephesians 4:26).

So what’s my plan attack? Learn to appreciate what I have been blessed with.