Wait. Don’t complain. God has a purpose for the yield sign.

This officially is my “patients give me advice week”. Since the beginning of the week patients having been refreshing my soul and giving me bits of wisdom (instead of the other way around). Today’s encounter especially blessed my heart and so I have decided to share it. One of our originals had an office visit today (originals are patients that started  with us when we first opened). For the sake of privacy we’ll call her Ms. S. When Ms. S first came to us her cancer was newly diagnosed. She went through chemotherapy with good response, had surgery and finished off with radiation. Scans showed a clean bill of health. Almost a year later she presented with a recurrence of cancer. She was devastated by the news. She had fought so hard and won, but now to have this happen… Today when she sat before me, it was like none of those days ever happened. They felt like a distant memory I had made up in my head. She smiled at me, gave me a hug and a kiss. Then said, “When are you going on the mission field?” I almost teared up (it’s a sore subject between God and I, the mission field). I replied, “God keeps telling me to wait.” I guess my face reflected more than I wanted it to, because she then said, “Don’t be angry and don’t rush God.” I looked at her and thought, she still sees God as good despite all she has gone through. She continued with, “He has a purpose for this. A reason why you are STILL here. Do you know, what it means after you hear you have cancer, to talk to someone like you? It is a blessing. You are a blessing, so don’t rush Him. He has a reason.” F L O O R E D!!!! (and humbled). I have been complaining to God, because it feels as though NOTHING is going my way. But today He literally shut me up. In the past week I have watched Him provide when I didn’t even ask (mostly because I had resigned myself to the idea of my needs not getting met). Each met need has been like a little spark igniting inside me reminding me that God moves. Today He not only moved, He spoke. He used the perfect voice too. The voice of someone who knows that God is good even if you get breast cancer, twice. Today the spark ignited into a fire.

“A word fitly spoken is like apples of gold in a setting of silver” (Proverbs 25:11).

So what’s the plan? I am going to learn to wait, and as I wait I will fulfill the purpose for which I am waiting.