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DAY 204 (2014)

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God keeps his promises. ALWAYS. (Picture by Lisa R.)

God keeps his promises. ALWAYS.
(Picture by Lisa R.)

So I have been wanting to post for a while, but time restraints have not permitted me. I have been blessed and blown away at how God has been revealing Himself to me through this new journey. I have to admit at the onset, I kept thinking, “Clearly this is not God”. This belief (or lack thereof) had me pushing through me days as if nothing was going to change, however, everyday God would tug at me with precise randomness (yup, that’s what I wanted to say). Random people would come up and say things like, “When are you leaving?” “I think you can do better than this, be better than this.” But still I persisted in my, “This can’t be God” thought pattern. So God started closing doors, jobs that I had applied for and was more than qualified for would pass me by, people that held me in place started to leave, my comfort was becoming more and more uncomfortable. He slowly but purposely started removing every and anything that would anchor me to my current locale. The kicker came when I went to work one day, clocked in, went to sign into my computer only to find that I had been completely deleted from the system. It stung a little because it dawned on me that I could be so easily removed after so faithfully working and giving my best. It was at that point it dawned on me, I genuinely have nothing holding me back, but me. It was almost as if a light-bulb went off and I realized that I wanted to move forward, I wanted to chase my dreams, I wanted to walk the path that I was created to travel, and not just walk the road because it was in front of me (because it was there). In the past few days as I have started to finalize my time here God has provided a rainbow, an awesome cop, and words of encouragement. The rainbow literally covered my entire complex, my devotion that day was about how God always keeps His promises. When I saw the rainbow, it was almost as if He was saying, “I will do ALL that I have placed in your heart. I PROMISE”. Today on my way home from work I was stopped at a red light for what seemed like forever. The light in my direction was stuck on red, there was a glitch. There was a cop two cars in front of me, after a while he flipped on his light and pulled out of traffic. My first thought, “Man I wish I had that kind of power to skip out on traffic”. But the cop did NOT skip out, instead he parked his car at the fuse box and switched the light to green, so that we could all GO home. At that moment I literally heard God say to my heart, “GO, I have made all your lights GREEN” (goosebumps… pounding heart, you get the picture). As if green light cop wasn’t enough, today I received the most beautiful card from my co-workers, my second family and the words displayed there have me believing that ANYTHING is achievable. What’s my point? We don’t always know why God is leading us on the journey. We don’t know what tool He will use to get us to go. But when He says, “GO!” Just do it, you’ll be amazed at how able He is to get you where He wants you.

“Look, I am giving all this land to you! Go in and occupy it, for it is the land the LORD swore to give to your ancestors Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, and to all their descendants” (Deuteronomy 1:8).

So what’s the plan? GO! 🙂

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I have hidden Thy word in my heart. (Picture by Lisa R)

I have hidden Thy word in my heart.
(Picture by Lisa R)

Deuteronomy 12. “When the Lord your God cuts off from before you the nations which you go to dispossess, and you displace them and dwell in their land, take heed to yourself that you are not ensnared to follow them, after they are destroyed from before you, and that you do not inquire after their gods, saying, ‘How did these nations serve their gods? I also will do likewise.’ You shall not worship the Lord your God in that way; for every abomination to the Lord which He hates they have done to their gods; for they burn even their sons and daughters in the fire to their gods. ‘Whatever I command you, be careful to observe it; you shall not add to it nor take away from it'” (Verses 29-32). This has been the week of God just talking, and talking, and reminding, and reminding. Just as God moved the children of Israel on a new journey, a path that would lead them to deeper, closer, and more intimate relationship with Him (if they chose to obey). He is doing the same with me. Each day during my time in Deuteronomy I am constantly reminded that the goal of my journey is to follow God. Prior to this my relationship with Christ was good, but safe. It was easy to trust, easy to obey (or try to) because even if things failed and fell apart I was in a place that I knew how to control. The same was true for Israel in Egypt, yes they were in slavery, but it was still comfortable because they understood it. New journeys requires one to let go of what they know and trust. God spends most of Deuteronomy reminding Israel that this journey, this promise came from Him. Everyday that I read I too am reminded. It is God who leads and guides me. ALWAYS!

DAY 194 (2014)

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world cupToday Germany beat Argentina in the most evenly matched World Cup, I have seen in a while. I have to be honest I really wanted Argentina to take it, but Germany earned every moment of that win. It reminds me of a verse my Pastor used this morning in his sermon, it is Luke 13:24, “Strive to enter through the narrow gate, for many, I say to you, will seek to enter and will not be able”. Today Germany strived for the win, they agonized till the very end and won the game. We like Germany and Argentina have a goal that we are working towards, however, many times we miss it because the price of striving the agony and pain involved feels like more than we can bear. Today let’s learn from the world cup teams, let’s stirve to win the prize. Let’s push forward even if it means extra minutes added to the game, even if it means we go into sudden death penalty kicks.

“Strive to enter through the narrow gate, for many, I say to you, will seek to enter and will not be able” (Luke 13:24).

So what’s the plan? Strive to get through the narrow gate.

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I have hidden Thy word in my heart. (Picture by Lisa R)

I have hidden Thy word in my heart.
(Picture by Lisa R)

Deuteronomy 3. “Then I pleaded with the Lord at that time, saying: ‘O Lord God, You have begun to show Your servant Your greatness and Your mighty hand, for what god is there in heaven or on earth who can do anything like Your works and Your mighty deeds? I pray, let me cross over and see the good land beyond the Jordan, those pleasant mountains, and Lebanon.’ But the Lord was angry with me on your account, and would not listen to me. So the Lord said to me: ‘Enough of that! Speak no more to Me of this matter. Go up to the top of Pisgah, and lift your eyes toward the west, the north, the south, and the east; behold it with your eyes, for you shall not cross over this Jordan. But command Joshua, and encourage him and strengthen him; for he shall go over before this people, and he shall cause them to inherit the land which you will see” (Verses 24-28). Hahaha. I always have to laugh when I realize that our examples, the forerunners of the faith, are just as human as I am. Moses disobeyed God. God said, speak to the rock”, however, Moses struck the rock. No one forced him to disobey. Yet in verse 26, he makes this statement, “But the Lord was angry with me on your account.” Uhmmm, no Moses, the Lord was angry because YOU disobeyed. Don’t we do the same thing, though, pass the buck?  “It’s because of you…” If only you, hadn’t…” However, the decision (on how to react) has always been ours to make. Here is the lesson that Moses learned and that we should learn as well. Our sins are just that, OURS. It doesn’t matter what the other person did or said, the decision on how to react was and is (will always be) ours and ours alone to make. Don’t pass the buck God is not fooled. Ours sins are always known by God and He is a righteous judge. 

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I have hidden Thy word in my heart. (Picture by Lisa R)

I have hidden Thy word in my heart.
(Picture by Lisa R)

Deuteronomy 2. “And I sent messengers from the Wilderness of Kedemoth to Sihon king of Heshbon, with words of peace, saying, ‘Let me pass through your land; I will keep strictly to the road, and I will turn neither to the right nor to the left. You shall sell me food for money, that I may eat, and give me water for money, that I may drink; only let me pass through on foot, just as the descendants of Esau who dwell in Seir and the Moabites who dwell in Ar did for me, until I cross the Jordan to the land which the Lord our God is giving us.’ But Sihon king of Heshbon would not let us pass through, for the Lord your God hardened his spirit and made his heart obstinate, that He might deliver him into your hand, as it is this day. And the Lord said to me, ‘See, I have begun to give Sihon and his land over to you. Begin to possess it, that you may inherit his land.’ Then Sihon and all his people came out against us to fight at Jahaz. And the Lord our God delivered him over to us; so we defeated him, his sons, and all his people. We took all his cities at that time, and we utterly destroyed the men, women, and little ones of every city; we left none remaining. We took only the livestock as plunder for ourselves, with the spoil of the cities which we took. From Aroer, which is on the bank of the River Arnon, and from the city that is in the ravine, as far as Gilead, there was not one city too strong for us; the Lord our God delivered all to us. Only you did not go near the land of the people of Ammon—anywhere along the River Jabbok, or to the cities of the mountains, or wherever the Lord our God had forbidden us” (Verses 26-37). God is very timely, lately as I do my devotions and spend time with Him, I am realizing that everything I read and learn is vital to the journey I am currently on. In the above verses God went before His people preparing the way. They were places they needed to fight to get through, and He fought for them. They were places they needed to journey through without looking to the right or left, because those places were an inheritance to those already there. He kept His promise to Lot and to Esau. As I read these verses my heart is comforted, for I know that although I am comfortable where I am, God is actually moving me out of my bondage, out of my Egypt. He is moving me into His promise for me (and my family). We have wandered long enough and all the fears that held us back have died in this time of wilderness, now is the time to take hold of the promise. 

DAY 192 (2014)

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Don't see the stretch you have to run. See the finish line.

Don’t see the stretch you have to run. See the finish line.

After yesterday’s realization. I decided to get back on track with my life. So decided to started doing the things that make me, well, me. So today I worked out, (it helps to clear my mind). I looked at my eating pattern and have made a plan to change the way I deal with stress. I have this bad habit of abandoning the things that give me peace and keep me centered when I am stressed, worried, or scared.  Today as I was formulating my plan I was reminded of something we tell our patients going through chemo: Don’t stop your life. Continuing doing the things you like to do. When you don’t feel like getting out of bed, make yourself get up. Live your life. Why do we give this advice? Because we (human beings) make subtle unconscious changes when life gets uncomfortable, when things are outside the realm of our control. These tiny compromises start to pile one on top of the other and before we know it… BAM! We are in a black whole of our own creation unable to find our way out. Today I made a conscious choice to regain my joy. A conscious choice to not worry, to put one foot in front of the other and move forward. Today for the first time in a while, I felt like me again. My life now (the one I am afraid of letting go of) is not where I want to be. Which begs the question, why do I want to stay? Honestly, it’s comfortable, it’s the evil I know, so to speak. But when I take my feelings and fears out of the equation  and look clearly I realize that there is NO room for growth where I am now, no chance for change. I’d rather try and fail, then never try and never know. So I am taking the advice that I give on a daily basis to heart. I am going live my life, do the things I like to do, and move forward. Just like my patients are’t sidetracked by cancer, I won’t be sidetracked by fear. Plus God’s in control… so what am I worried about? God’s got this!

“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze” (Isaiah 43:2).

So what’s the plan? One foot in front of the other, with my eyes focused on God.

DAY 191 (2014)

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A change in perspective, a change of view. (Picture by Lisa R.)

A change in perspective, a change of view.
(Picture by Lisa R.)

I am just realized something. I am scared! I am petrified about the move I am making. I am worried that I may fail, may not accomplish my goal and that my life will end up as nothing. This has always been my biggest fair. Not failure, but becoming inconsequent, irrelevant. Why? Every person with a pulse wants their life to have meaning, have purpose. We all want to be remembered for something. How did I come to my fear discovery? Today, I went to a doctor’s appointment, stood on the scale and almost had a heart attack!!! When I saw my weigh I quickly went through my recent eating pattern and realized that I had been handling my fear with food, which wouldn’t be so bad if I had chosen healthy foods, but… NOPE (while comfort food is comforting, it is not healthy). Today as I sat bemoaning my current state, I tried to find logic to my fears. I don’t understand why, I am fearful. I know the decision is right. Even now God is meeting and supplying every single need (as recent as yesterday). So why am I so fearful? Then it hit me that I am looking at me. I am not looking at God. I know in my heart and in my head that God will take care of me, of my family. The problem is that while my head may know it my eyes are NOT focused on His strength , but mine. Guess what? My strength is inadequate. So at this juncture in my journey I think it is time for a perspective change. It is time for me to focus on WHO needs to be focused on and take my eyes off I who I SHOULDN’T be focusing on, myself.  I am reminded of something I often say to others, but need to hear myself: Our perspective determines our actions. Meaning how we see a situation, determines how we will handle it. If we see it as scary we’ll react in fear. If we see it as chance for growth, then we will grow. So today I am choosing to see this as God’s leading. Therefore my reaction is to follow, WITHOUT fear. We all face moments of fear it part of our human journey, but our perspective will determine how we handle it. Change our perspective, change our view.

“What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?” (Romans 8:31).

So what’s the plan? Fix my eyes on God.

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I have hidden Thy word in my heart. (Picture by Lisa R)

I have hidden Thy word in my heart.
(Picture by Lisa R)

Numbers 33. “Speak to the Israelites and say to them: ‘When you cross the Jordan into Canaan,drive out all the inhabitants of the land before you. Destroy all their carved images and their cast idols, and demolish all their high places. Take possession of the land and settle in it, for I have given you the land to possess. Distribute the land by lot,according to your clans. To a larger group give a larger inheritance, and to a smaller group a smaller one. Whatever falls to them by lot will be theirs. Distribute it according to your ancestral tribes. But if you do not drive out the inhabitants of the land, those you allow to remain will become barbs in your eyes and thorns in your sides. They will give you trouble in the land where you will live. And then I will do to you what I plan to do to them'” (Verses 51-56). Today as I watched the news and the proclamation of war toward Israel these verses became very real. God said, “destroy it ALL”. Israel did not obey. God said. “If you don’t it will come back to bite you” (uhmmm…paraphrase).  Disobedience will always come back and bite us. ALWAYS. There. Are. No. Exceptions. Want peace in the further? Obey God in the present. 

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I have hidden Thy word in my heart. (Picture by Lisa R)

I have hidden Thy word in my heart.
(Picture by Lisa R)

Numbers 32. “The Reubenites and Gadites, who had very large herds and flocks, saw that the lands of Jazer and Gilead were suitable for livestock. So they came to Moses and Eleazar the priest and to the leaders of the community, and said, ‘Ataroth, Dibon, Jazer, Nimrah, Heshbon, Elealeh, Sebam, Nebo and Beon— the land the Lord subdued before the people of Israel—are suitable for livestock, and your servants have livestock. If we have found favor in your eyes,’ they said, ‘let this land be given to your servants as our possession. Do not make us cross the Jordan'” (Verses 1-5). Wait! What?! “Don’t MAKE us cross over the Jordan.” I am blown away by this. They wondered for forty years in the wilderness, watched their family members die, and miss the promise land; and now they are asking NOT to go in? I am not a bible scholar or a historian by any means, but starting from today I am going to look up the history of the Reubenites and the Gadites, because I can’t imagine that living outside of God’s promise was the best decision they could have made. The thing though is we do that, us, humans. We, like the Reubenites and the Gadites, only see the physical, the RIGHT now. I am sure that had they ventured into the Jordan they would have found land 100 times more suitable for livestock. Why? Because GOD had prepared the promised land for them. It would have met ALL their needs. But they settled. This scripture hits home a bit for me today, because I am preparing to take hold of a promise, but I, like the Reubenites and Gadites see clearly the security of the here and now and I am tempted to stay outside.  But I realize that if I do that I will never know what God had for me. So today’s lesson: Don’t miss the promise, don’t settle for the here and now. Strive for the eternal. 

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I have hidden Thy word in my heart. (Picture by Lisa R)

I have hidden Thy word in my heart.
(Picture by Lisa R)

Numbers 29. “In addition to what you vow and your freewill offerings, offer these to the Lord at your appointed festivals: your burnt offerings, grain offerings, drink offerings and fellowship offerings” (Verse 39). At first glance all these offerings and festivals seems overwhelming and overbearing when looking at it from a human perspective. In our eyes it becomes rules and regulations that we follow just because… there is no heart behind it. However, it was God’s heart that His people worship Him, love Him, and spend time in relationship with Him.  The offerings and festivals were never meant to become rules and regulation, there were meant to lead to relationship. Sadly we missed the point and thus Christ had to die. We have a choice everyday routine religious rules, or real active no limits relationship with God our creator.